Motherhood has felt super natural for me. Still hard AF and so testing on all levels of my being, and within that; exactly perfect through all the ups and downs.
I didn’t feel previously that becoming a mom was solely my purpose. And I still don’t. Obviously this role is a purposeful part of my existence and my duty to offer myself as a guide and space holder for Bodhi’s development. However my soul did not become fulfilled through procreation like the story goes for some women. There is no right way to experience this initiation, it’s all here for our souls expansion.
If I’m talking about my soul, I see that motherhood was the key to unlock the insight and drive to instigate my souls deeper purpose and mission. The creation of Bodhi commenced during my Saturn Return and so my deepest lesson and integration in spiritual responsibility was on the horizon.
Parenthood offers the most potent and precise personal and spiritual growth. I remember feeling regret that I hadn’t experienced a Vipassana retreat before having a baby, until I learned that the immersion and boundary testing of new mommahood and toddlerhood could also lead to liberation. Instead of sense withdrawal it’s through sense absorption. Learning to channel my reaction internally so to not perpetuate the toddler melting point is a practice and SO immediately beneficial to our dynamic. Channeling my response creates a space for me to observe my inner attitude and mindset. Responding instead of reacting is an obvious rule, and still it takes some conscious dedication to choose presence when faced with a tiny human who demands and requires constant care and attention. Aligning to grace, I tune into my intention of conscious parenting and seek the support and community necessary to thrive.
Loving the way I’m growing and affirming healthy habits, welcoming both the struggles and joys as my next level of spiritual initiation and to Level Up! Currently in the depths of course creation and SO excited to share more soon about this container for spiritual evolution to support the pre and postnatal experience!
Share with me some of your greatest lessons and deepest triggers within parenthood!? If you could start over, what wisdom would you offer your past self to bring ease, permission and support to this life transformation?